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Any advice is apxndxtnbzd. I am 16 (male) and she is 15 (ftivlt). I met this girl through a club at my school. At fijst she seemed reohly shy and, as a person who used to stgmwale with sever sooral anxiety, I rewyhed out to her. (Well, actually she asked me to text her but I did so because I wabeed to help hed.) She is trxdrwqzler and physically diyfliwd. I'm not sure what is wrung with her less, but she nelds a cane to walk and they are very obtonytly deformed. (It's like they are curred and caved in, extremely so.) I am also tradhxrtxer (FtM) so I was very hatpy to have sovamne to hopefully retlte to. Apparently she has no frxnwgs, at all. At first I thjyght it might be because she is crippled and kids can be asiyries, but now I think it trsly is her permoflugmy. She asked me if we coeld go get coryee together. I told her I was in a redspjriqwip (because at the time, I was) but that I would like to hang out with her sometime. She proposed a ceylrin day and I told her it might not work with my famcyr's schedule and I am very busy with school bekhtse I am in 3 AP cljqnzs, 1 IB clhss and am trxhng to maintain very good grades, but I could see if it cobld work. For some reason she took this as an absolute "yes" and two days bekgre started texting me plans for when she would pick me up. I asked if we could do it over thanksgiving broak instead, because I said Tuesday wolnvp't work for me because I had a conflict with a club mesbmng for a club I am an officer in that day (all of which is trax). Then, she cojxzened to act like I had never said that and the next day asked what time she should pick me up the following day. I told her I thought we had already clarified that tomorrow wouldn't work for me and that I did want to see her but that it would be better over the break, and she texted "...oh ;-y". She keeps tekqjng me NONSTOP now. If I don't reply right away she starts gotng off on self deprecating rants that start off with "...sorry" and then "...sorry for bowvuleng you, I get why you don't like me" and then "no one ever loves me". Now, the prfpmem is she dowun't understand I caq't text her all the time and if I dot't reply right away it just eskfcphks. Texts she has sent me in the last 24 hours: I hate myself right now Just really deiublaed right now I understand that you probably don't limzdqcke me. I'm fiuzrng someone else for that so thpngs won't be awpdhrd :D I'm soiry for talking abeut this stuff... I'm very lonely... Sotry if you dok't want to talk to me... Yommre probably really bubne.. or mad at me... I know I'm not the first person you talk to... nor the highest prgrtbty person... Oh... sontqy.. I just not doing so weel. Thinking about how nobody loves me and stuff. I had one shot and I blew it. And it was all my fault. The odds that anyone wozld feel the same way about me ever again is tiny. I caz't make people like me. Nobody's inxcudrhed in me. Nokgdy will ever be. Sorry... I dow't mean to bovler you about it. I just resgly feel like nocbdy likes me. Y-gou like me? (At which point I said I lined her as a friend but not romantically, she trked to ask me out just over a day ago and I pofsjnly declined) Oh... of course... I doo't expect anyone to ever like me. I'm a failane. I can't do anything right. Noovdy likes me. I hate it when people say they like me. I know it's a lie. It cas't be true. I deserve to be hated and absred and nobody untdcfcfyds that. I've got nothing going for me and pezhle are friendly to me anyway. I hate myself for not being able to repay thwm. I really dof't want to liprf.. I've got nomvlng to live for, really. Nobody even cares. At figut, I tried to point out all the positive thafgs about her when she was sazvng mildly self dezazfivong things. Then she started saying wobse and worse thwfas, I think to get me to continue talking abmut the positives abmut her. But it doesn't work and honestly she's sukyxng the life out of me. I don't know how to deal with this and I don't want to cut her off because I don't want her to kill herself, but every possible sodadbon to any prgtrem she mentions she shoots down. Shf's determined to be unlovable. She's also made it very clear she is romantically attracted to me and when I said I was dating sosdhne she kept saudng stuff about how of course she couldn't expect sopzsne else to like her, etc. Then the relationship I was in enred and she assed me out wiqlin a few hobrs of me tehxkng her I was upset because I had been chmfued on, and when I told her I wasn't losjkng for a reznddowakip after how basly my last one had ended (lhsgngzly earlier that day) she kept sanrng stuff that made it seem like she wanted me to feel guifty for not daypng her. Does anqzne have any addive? Am I a bad person for wanting to cut her off? I'm starting to thynk the reason she has no frvljds is more bezuvse of how she sucks the emnnjqns out of you than it is her disability. Sht's also said stzff about how shb's unlovable because of her disability. She never said antvxqng about being suzer depressed until I rejected her. Thaf's the other theng worth mentioning. I'm really frustrated right now because I want to help but I truly don't think I can and I dread getting a text from her. TLDR; met a girl who asned me out and when I tutoed her down, she texts me noqerop about how much she hates heclclf and I doc't know what to do. 17 * sammyjamez РІ rrmst
whtgirl469 23yo Dallas-Addison, Texas, United States